Meet Me...

Meet me by the lake in my special spot
Meet me in front of the building with a smile
Meet me with my favorite food when I don't expect it
Meet me at my coffee place when I'm goofing off

Meet me when I sleep on the floor on my sad days
Meet me when I'm watching a stupid movie just to cry
Meet me when I'm curled up in a ball of tears
Meet me when I can't hold myself together

Meet me when my fists are balled in fury
Meet me when my face is beet red
Meet me when you're the only one I don't hate
Meet me when you aren't

Meet me in my best
Meet me in my awful worst
Wherever I happen to be
Please... Just meet me.



This may seem really weird.  And it's not exactly poetry.  But this has been where I've been for the past few months.  There's a therapeutic theory about helping people overcome certain issues, and the first thing is you can't just pull them out of their comfort zones.  You have to meet them where they are and when they're comfortable you help them feel empowered to overcome.

I haven't posted in  a long time.  I've been struggling with my life recently.  Losing my mom two years ago is finally fully sinking in and honestly, is haunting me.  I'm starting to remember a lot of details, I'm seeing others with moms, I'm watching TV shows with moms and feeling sick to my stomach.  I'm seeing my friends in relationships and even getting married, and feeling deeply unwanted and alone.  I'm going to work every morning with a dread in my heart and mind about what is going to happen "this time".  I'm forgetting things, losing things, have no motivation, and can't explain why I feel this way.

SO.  I'm posting this for...... really no apparent reason.  Except one thing.  If you're struggling with this, or if you have a close friend or relative who feels this way, please.  PLEASE.  Don't just do nothing about it.  It can end badly.  PLEASE meet someone where they are.  Ask for help.  Ask to be met.  Because a lot of times, no one knows what to do.  Help them to help you.  I love you guys <3