This Tuesday, I want to just talk about my mom. I spent just less than a year with her, talking to her, reminding her to take pills, taking her to her appointments, dressing her wound, volunteering to give her shots when she just couldn't do it herself. Our trip to Mexico was spent with me sitting next to her, trying to keep her mind off of the painful IVs she had, speaking whatever Spanish I knew to her nurses, constantly trying to make time to have us go outside and wander around. Those 2 weeks were very emotional and trying for the both of us. But through that whole thing, she never complained. She kept strong in The Lord, and still managed to be a mother and wife and a teacher to me. She was my hero.
When she died, I felt so guilty. I had been mad that we hadn't talked while she was in Nevada, and I was mad that she had to leave me at home. I never got to talk to her about prom, future boyfriends, my senior year of high school, the great friends I found after, or the great friends I still have to find. I've struggled with that thought, and it's depressed me for the 139 days she's been gone.
But what she left me with was beyond what I could have imagined. She left me with a Godly perspective on life, and a role model to think back on. But most importantly, she left me with the mindset that I am a princess. I am the daughter of the God who created the world, everything in it, and everyONE in it. But he made me special. I am his chosen one. I am his favorite. And she lived her life believing that everyone she talked to was God's chosen creation. And that we should treat ourselves as such: Humble ourselves before God, and hold ourselves to a higher standard than the world gives us. So that's what#TiaraTuesday is all about. Putting this into our everyday lives. Remember this, ladies AND gentlemen. We are the children of God. And we are chosen.
For my 18th birthday, I want to get a tattoo of the word "fly". That word to me represents everything my mama would have wanted for me, and everything I'm striving for today. This song I heard on the radio says "It's time for us to more than just survive. We were made to thrive".
Mama, I love you. Thank you for everything you did for me as a mother and a role model. I love you to the moon and back.
