My Brain...

... is going to BLOW UP.  Summer should just be here by now.  I want to just get through school with my skull and my GPA intact.

I have just been introduced to one of the most mindlessly entertaining TV shows I have ever watched besides Spongebob Squarepants.  Melissa and Joey?  I just think it's super cute.  Maybe when I'm in my 30s and still single, I'll hire an effortlessly attractive Italian guy to be my nanny... for my... kids?  I just lost my groove there.  But thanks to my amazing looks and social skills, that won't happen...

Can anyone relate to these pictures?

Yeah I'm just gonna go do that now.  See you guys when I emerge.

Love is a many splendored thing, love lifts us up where we belong, all you need is love!

Aaaaaaall you need is love!  Aaaaaaall you need is love!

And yes, I did just quote Moulin Rouge.  That has to be my favorite movie in like ever.

Loves is fantabulous.  I made up a word.  I'm quite amazing.  Anyhoo, I love love.  I get all melt-y when I see romantic movies and fantasize like I'm in a love story the rest of the week.  I can't even handle seeing it in real life, cause I just "aww" out loud and make people uncomfortable.  I am literally "that person" sometimes, that makes a big deal and makes it weird.

I also love quirky love, like weird love stories that make you frown a little bit, then just makes you feel good inside.  I was watching Clueless with my sister the other night, and we both agreed it was just a little weird that she fell in love with a guy that used to be her step-brother.  Of course he, being Paul Rudd, was SUPER attractive, sweet, and not technically related to her in any way anymore.  Win win situation on my end, just still a little weird.

Either way, love is just freakin' amazing.  Period.  Any thoughts????? :)

*awkwardly loud squeal* 

Chocolate, Chaps, and Chinese food.

This title mostly describes all I can think about.  Weird I know... If I'm not thinking about life decisions and my mom and school work, I'm thinking about what it would be like to have everything I ever wanted.  A perfect body, even while eating all the junk food I wanted, a boyfriend that is like my soul mate, a lot of amazing friends, two wonderful parents, fantastic clothes, the perfect house, perfect hair and skin, lead roles in my favorite plays...

I think I've said just enough to make whoever is reading this just a little awkwardly close to me.  You all should know that this will probably be normal for me... after reading my blog we might be close on an awkward level... you might just know too much about me.

But anyhoo, I have nothing really to complain about.  I am 17 years old and feel like I'm 100.  Is that normal?  ........... Blegh.  That's just how it's been the last few weeks... months... years... Just blegh.

DANG IT, SELF, JUST BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU HAVE.

Anyone else just randomly have the craving to cuddle your blankets and pillows while eating junk food and watching High School Musical?  That's what I've wanted for like a week now... Anyone wanna join me in crying over the immature high school romance?  Let me know ;)

Joshua 1:9

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."

All right... here goes......... Boys.

All right.  I feel the need to talk about boys at this moment.  I have no experience with romance.  None whatsoever.  I've always felt a little weird about that, feeling like I was too ugly or too weird to date.  And now it's worse than ever!!!

Broadening my horizons by moving schools has given me the chance to observe a wide variety of relationships.  There is always "that couple"; the ones who have been together for so long that no one really can see them being apart.  THAT'S the kind of relationship I was always jealous of.  The couple that are more like best friends than a couple.

THEN I look at different couples.  The ones that are so awkward that no one really knows why they're dating; the ones who are just... weird...; that couple that is composed of one really cute girl/guy with one really weird girl/guy and no one really knows why they're together either...;  the unlikely couple: the ones that no one would have put together;  the dysfunctional couple that breaks up and gets back together more than they blink.

That's when I realize that maybe I'm better off not entering the dating pool.  But, being a 17-year-old girl, that's not likely to enter my mind more than once a week.

My thought process includes watching Disney movies and eating ice cream, dreaming about a guy who will sweep me off my feet.  A guy who will buy me dinner and hold my hand and kiss me in the rain.  A guy who will call me "gorgeous" and plan all these romantic walks and getaways.  My own personal Prince Charming.  THAT is my thinking... weird right?!  *laughs* Yeah, teenage girls have some pretty weird daydreams...

The thing I end up wrestling my head around is the fact that God has a plan.  He knows what will happen.  He knows I have no guts to ask a guy out or tell a guy I like him.  He knows there is a man out there for me; a man who will meet my (realistic) expectations in every way.  A man who is PERFECT.  Just for me :)